Survival of the Fabulous

The Nature of Things - Survival of the Fabulous

26th November 2013 (Tuesday)

I see silent tears in the mirror
there stood a dull-looking shell
the shell has been showered
under thee flash long
long enough to see cracks

This is my current boss

 She meant to say this before, "I know this is unrelated to your job, but ...."

Can you print this out for me?
Can you fax this for me ?
Can you follow up this?

And recently....
Can you do this for me? Order custom cupcake from Wondermilk.

This task is an immediate assigned on a week ago. Without any information on what a customized visual cupcake she wants, well actually it's what her friend wants.

No picture, no son's name, no flavour ideas, when is the celebration?
Just a roughly estimation of 30 pcs for kids. Not until days later, one by one clue is given out, or not until I ask.

While waiting the clue to emerge,  comes a customized cake... her suggestion is either Pastin Cafe near Isetan and another bakery which she forgot about the name (or maybe she never order herself) was but it's near Robinson, at Garden Mall. I went on surveying for most possibility to any bakery outlets may do custom made cupcake around the mall after work, I only found one which madam mentioned to inquire for.

Another days later, I got the name of the boy, and I found out that the outlet charges a quite an amount for based price excluded design and difficulties to complete, with varies of flavour.

Madam who take on this but didn't ask for any information related to her friend, passing the unrelated task to unrelated department. Just madam What kind of ass task is this?

My boss is so "clever" that she assigns SOMEONE who do not own transport and not from local among all staffs (including her personal driver) to order a customized cupcake by walk-in due to terms & conditions, which is actually for her friend's son. I wonder why her friend do not order themselves for their precious son.

"Madam, I don't have transport...and unsure of exact location,"
"Then take a taxi lar,"
Sounds like the cupcake is more important than one staff's safety.

Hate Liars

I got a colleague whom I work in the company tells lies in front of the boss like

"It's not my fault at all !!"

written in her dick face and apologizes for what her mistake has caused me behind the boss after the discussion. I was suspecting something really not right when she explained it's an old method that they use, instead of the present method with missing parts that they WORK DAILY, and agrees with madam that they stopped using . Everyday is like April's Fool.

Even dirty the our Sabah image because she's origin from the same hometown... Dick rots. No one wants to fuck her.

Liar

Hate. Hate it the way she caused troubles to office management because she selfishly kept any incidents happened in our facilities, turns out the boss scolded office staffs for not doing our job that they completely not aware of, and not long after came unwanted problems and complaints are brought by customers into office, and all blame office for not taking actions.

Servicing in the company for almost 10 years, I don't get it how she can still stay working in this company without sack.

Yes Or No

These movies are interesting and recently hot in Thailand, and I'm glad they made them. It's a clear image and understanding about one's kind. Plus they pointed out what we think inside.

If you feel disgust, don't watch further.

Yes Or No
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCYjf8zhGJ8

Yes or No 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3BjoYi0MJ8

Their words maybe straight forward, but deep down they just don't want me to be anti-social and took me even for complimentary lunch which I normally do not take, but dinner. Yes. All I could say is "Thanks".

Now that I'm parted away, far away from there, outside of comfort zone into the den of cunning wolfs and hyenas, I wish not to drag anyone because of I innocent, hopeless soul.

May 2013

Another brand new month, May. Election Month I would address. Everyone is so excited yet fear of unwelcome incidents.

4th May 2013 (Saturday)
It was a boring half day work.... although meeting has been dismissed, with works is discussed, I have no directions to what I should do because I was not discussed with my superior who got nerve burst on fixing the company's website.

So, kind of waiting the time to run off office. 1.45pm, I went to Nutrition Fair at the exhibition hall.

April is not FOOL

Things fool me for real. Expenses within this month is wallet BLEEDS !!

(2nd April  2013 Tuesday)

I especially taking a half day leave just to repair my handphone in Berjaya Plaza. I wait patiently upon 30 minutes earlier arrival at the centre.

I get nothing, but a wasteful journey costing me transport and my half day payment gone. Returning to workplace. Haih...

Having to take care my handphone with SD Card replacement in the early month costing RM70 for 8GB, downgraded from 16GB.. nevermind, as long as I can reactivate my handphone functionality.

Thus, handphone SD Card settled.

 (2nd April  2013 Tuesday)

 Having curious of what's everyone like in mind when choosing books. I have been observing people around, mostly Malays carrying MPH plastic bags with books. Bold books looks cool, and they express their owner's hobbies and interest.

When it's my turn, I search... searching.... searching.... search... still searching.... I'm out empty handed. I don't know how exactly my real interest topics and contents of books. When it's finding a book, it's hard for me.

I'm not a bookworm, excluding mangas and colourful picture books. It's really a waste because they are not cheap.

When I truly found a book I want to read, it will probably be my bedtime story. Hope this book (above) don't stay in dust.

 (5th April 2013)

Charity is good, and I agreed. Sharing some joy with the disability orphans, I would and I don't mind giving some money portions to buy soft toys and dolls with a colleague/superior. RM125 of my medium portion.

Look, only black rabbits left. We raped most of them from Daiso.

Charity done.

(11th April 2013 Thursday)

Savours incoming for my aid. Auntie, uncle and my mom both support me financially after I had gone through my first hard month of  very tight financial. I received with grateful heart. I got my BR1M from mom who brought all the way from home to me with great care. I still receive dad's money support every month.

Financial temporary safe. 

 (15th April 2013 Monday)

After meeting up with brother during mom's visit to her two city tigers, brother gave in advices and suggestion to all of us, saving costs and reconnections, while mom on discussion of being us cooperative in paying household use and bills settlement which we all agreed.

I finally stand up for a monthly pass pay with RM100 for 30days unlimited, which save me RM38 ~ RM68 of transport cost.

Transport fee settled. 

So temporary bye bye for these machines. Saves me another time to queue buying tokens and finding & ready coins every single journey.

 (21st April 2013 Sun)

I admit that I HATE Sundays when money should kept safe i no out but goes away... last night, Saturday... should be a relax day with no headache when a small encounter visits me. the plug damaged. So I get it, just to replace another, however I forgot to buy it after work.

When I was a few meters away back, I realized my mission yet undone. Forcing myself running around in thirst, to complete my mission by tonight.

I always thought Jusco gives me the best solution when problems come, I did say "No." Yes, it's Jusco, but not as professional as ingredients and sources vary than in main city.... I found very fewer choice to buy, so I went back to shoplots where I found there's plug I might want.

Returning with the plug, I head for an additional plug to combine them for the cooker's head. With another staff assistant, he showed me what I want. Dammit.... wasted my energy, more thirst and having headache walking in a distance to Jusco vice versa just to buy that damn plug.

Plug settled.

Now, not even my mission failed for saving cost, I increased more cost myself. The induction cooker has ended its life in my hands....... not functioning after few tries that came out "EO" and shut off forever. Pain in the head when I was about to have my late breakfast and new start over with reading newspapers and relax Sunday which postpone afternoon.

On a mission running to Jusco again, to get anew.... PHILIPS Induction Cooker, costing RM249 with RM10 deduction, I'm glad that I can save RM10 for my dinner.

Induction Cooker settled.

 The PHILIPS Induction Cooker, with 2 years warranty. I hope my housemates can use it with care.

Washing vegetables which I bought today.

 Asam Laksa maggi with half brinjal and vege

 After mission accomplished, washing and cooking in the kitchen in relax mode.

 I have a gathering in workplace where I play Galactic Laser game as additional player. At 4pm time getting ready as thunder is heard and starting to grow closer.

In LRT means no worries, well depends on everyone. Rain starts to pour very heavy and thunderstorm arrives even closer. Blasting lightnings and roaring thunders makes me restless and anxious eventhough I'm sitting reading newspaper.

Inside the tunnel in Dang Wangi LRT where STUCK starts interferes. I'm glad that I own a seat to sit back reading and wait. Stucking in LRT the second time, I make full use of reading newspaper, highlighting useful sentences and phrases until LRT start mobilizing again in 15-20minutes.

Arriving MidValley, my first mission starts. I have decided to buy that as a farewell gift to my colleague/superior which I know it's costly (RM64.90). There's a buffet cost yet to come which is around RM56. = ..= I'm willing to.. but... maybe I shouldn't ...?

Gift done.

My dinner at Subway. Yes it's costly... but I couldn't help remember my lunch with my mom on her last day visit.... *sand in my eyes*

This is my gameplay score in 2nd round Mission. 

In the gameplay, I'm in Red Team, and my name is Reaper (according to battle-suit I wore).

I have the 2nd highest score (15001 scores) among 3 teams (Red, Green, Blue) and have the highest scores in Red Team.

It's my first time, and I get so excited how to play in real. As no one knows, I take photographs but didn't involve the play. But one thing good is that, I'm familiar with the battle arena which gives me an advantage to run around and shooting more.

During the gameplay....really, I'm like a commando going solo eventhough I have teammates. I rarely see most of them in sight, only a fewer is running amok. I enjoy playing with the international foreigners students as well. It's so dark enough that I even hit my lips on walls. XD

 The game ends around 8.45pm with joining random players, which is fun, I am able to ditch away money problems and stress, oh and good sweats too. 9.06pm the exact time I reach South Court entrance, Free Shuttle Bus arrives.

On my way back, I lost my second pen in a week.... again.... Blue. he was 4 and a half days old. RM1.20. His last service was noble, with the written name of Christine. He left behind two brothers, Black and Red... remembers my stress again

Problematic Week for Ending March

Obstacles visiting... my SD Card problem, Coaled pot, criticism, bad impression came in one week, the problematic ending of March.

Well, just the beginning. Yet, there are people who's more unfortunate than these piece of creaky stones. Luck is with everyone, but just how we are approaching the problems and give the best solutions in the right situations to avoid having blue days.

Just like the coaled pot, it's my fault for not setting a timer as a reminder to switch off the cooker, in the result which cost me time of frustrations and misery, withdrawing money to buy a replacement for the household to use. Glad the cooker is fine.

Of course, paying the price for my carelessness. It's not cheap though.

Then there goes an unexpected group of families visit to our house unit to view the medium room to let. I could hear the criticism from an aunty who went to the toilet-showeroom, 

"The toilet is very dirty," she critized.

No choice, I had problem with the coaled pot and went out urgently to buy a replacement. Plus I had stomach ache this morning, and I should have let the aunty know just how originally dirty and yucky the WHOLE HOUSE UNIT was by time my mom and I viewed.

Fine... it's my little blue day, admitted. 

Anyhow, there's superiors who are nice to me, some may have explicit attitude, but that makes them decisive and good leadership. Makes me think of my primary school Grade 5&6 form teacher. Hope I make the least mistake to trouble them.

One who favours Hello Kitty collections and very kind, loving-mother psychologistic-HR ;
One anti-LGBT but like LGBT staffs, "globe traveller"  decisive, adviser accountant ;
One healthy-care, energetic and daring leader ;
One adviser, anti-Chinese, but a single status Chinese neighbour Sarawakian manager who tells dirty jokes;
One a bit careless, quiet, but religious-Muslim, creative and pleasing daddy designer;
One of a kind who gives advises and support inside-outside office

..etc

How long I may stay here is still unknown. But one thing to remind myself is, I'm SABAHAN. Live as Sabahan and do as Sabahan, and one day return home as humble Sabahan.

Letting off Steam

There are many unseen stress and frustrations happening around us, many adults work it out with alcohol. I feel sympathy for the adulthood, in the near future, I might feel the same when work meets obstacles as easily as hitting rocks on the floor.

How is it to you to feel stressful yet you can’t hit the bad society an unlawful way? Hit people in the face? I REALLY would like to try, just to see how aggressive I can go. Everyone likes games, because they are enjoyable and has the best visualized attraction scenes, either violent or happy turn violent games, I like.

PC games, The Sim 2 I used to play in my childhood. There are great intentions that drive me to kill Sims that I don’t want or just to collect gravestones to build a haunted mansion scenery. XD When my research goes on, the first accident I made is Fire.

Having the Unwanted Sim (usually I made at least two) gets into real bad mood to cook with bad cooking skill will get fire accident fast and furious! FIRE ~~~!!  Oh, and I make up stories of how they die in fire breaking. XD

The stove caught on fire, the husband panic running amok in the kitchen. Oh, I just let him panic for a while, waiting the fire gets big. It’s about time, I draw the husband to put out the fire. At the right moment, the wife step in the kitchen, sees fire, running amok too. And “oh shit my darling caught on fire!” She ran in the blaze too, and later had herself set on fire. Two gravestones.

Fire accident death, erm.. not really prefer when I come out the best solution with one click per Sims to get into the swimming pool. I can have as many gravestone I want XD and make up another story, family drown in swimming pool HAHAHA

Enough of gravestones XD. When you got the cheat, sometimes watching them bathing or showering in nude with no censor at all can be fun for stress-relief. Sorry, it’s a game. The Sims game supposed to build to love and caring human personality, but I dirtied it : D

I did like to try violent games too. Just wish that I have the PC games to play. Many are pirated and not even workable after installed due of insufficient requirement from my laptop or computer. Assassin Creed, Crysis, Dragon Age, Diablo 3, The Sims 3…etc

There’s a lot of positive stress-relief you can find. They are just around, easy to find and it’s free. Take a walk, exercise. Sketch drawing, sleeping, writing, reading comics..etc I prefer lying down looking up the sky, it makes me peace to think of what's next I am going plan later or in the near future.

Sketching is one of the choices, normally I would have images rounding globe in my head, just to visualize it, I "scan" it on a blank paper.

Sometimes reading facts and discoveries might bores me, like the head about to burst, so why not take a peace-switching topics? Reading and understanding comics which I somewhat prefer does give in the chance to know about myself, building morality, not just happy reading plots and stories and the end.

First Day

11th March 2013 (Monday)
First day new environment, guided by a superior walking around introducing to staffs and all surroundings. I have two bosses, one big one small, gonna running around because there's another office that the small boss is directing.

The more staffs I get to know, the more works I need to make anew for old replacements and mistakes. My superior gave me the comments and pointed out the mistakes made by previous designers, which gave me clues of what my responsibilities lie here.

Showing activity rooms, storage room, staff rooms, function rooms, armory, office, arena, cafe, karaokes, arcade, cinema, art and craft, merchadise, music, dance, briefing rooms..etc

My job can be quite challenging, as my job scope is somewhat wider besides assisting a Senior Graphic Designer. Hope I can maintain presentable.

9th March 2013

9th March 2013

Starting anew.
Before I step out the safe zone, I tell myself,
This is not K.K.

Do not talk friendly with unknown sales people of nameless companies.
Stop any friendly conversation on sales people at instant.
Walk away and stick with the crowds,
continue what I plan to do.

 May not turn phobia,
but reject with setup mindset as "Liars, Scams"
ignore.

Drop off South Court area at MidValley, thanks to a girl I met, who looks younger than me with fluent English helped me get to the right bus.

9.33am, opps... if it's working hour, I am considered late. Should depart 30 minutes earlier. Waiting the shops to open business. 10.09am, people start to appear little by little. I went to the LG floor where most people gathered for meals.

Spending my time at MPH, browsing books and magazines... reading some good articles. I found Ellen DeGeneres on the Australian's Woman's Weekly cover, but none are touched or sold. I read a little, flipping pages, in my mind.... I feel sad... I have to save money to survive, I really want to take one of the shelf.

Reading art books, and looking through books from Teen section, most customers are Malays with hands fully held with 3 to 4 thick books, some are seen reading on the floor. Having imaginations fantasied from books, to illustrate to pictures is always kept as a way to learn drawing.

I have no idea what books suit me, and wonders if I ever promise to finish. Another question comes in mind, how people pick their books of choice? Leaving MPH to SPEEDY.

With the amount of money in my wallet, somewhat shrinking my choice to leisure... Touch and Go, yeap... Admiring others can buy, leaving Anime section. Time for lunch, same thought. What's the best choice with lowest pay and fill my daily energy? Mc Donald. Crowded. I wanted to take Burger King as Wifi is available, but the set of food is expensive.

Brought my Mc Donald set (I wanted a Double Mac, but it costly.), sitting on the ground floor bench, eating like a beggar.... well.. I only have a cup of Milo as breakfast. Munching the french fries, watching people passing with fashion clothes, most wear sandals, top long sleeve cowboy shirt with short pants and slippers. Is this a trend or it's comfortable..?

Face down... Going to the PC Fair exhibition held from 8-10 March 2013. Then I think of how I long for an external hard disk I promised to have very soon. I learn something from nowadays technologies. One is a Power Bank that is a portable battery for charging handphones when outside. Besides that, it can used as flashlights, laser beam and money scanner. Another one act as a multi-purpose wifi for playing android games, watching TV / Movies, skype, whatsapp, use just like handphone but with TV size screen...etc 

Very crowded, being pushed around, there's banks too offering credit cards registrations. My mind tells me I'm not eligible to have credit cards for at least two years.

Finally, I'm out the crowd. Filling blood donation form, I am relieved that I pass everything this time, no more "rejected blood stock". About 15 minutes, everything done. Served with free Milo and bread to regain energy.

Leaving the exhibition, to wander around. Think very carefully of what to buy and what's not at Jusco / Aeon. I'm lucky to catch the Free Shuttle Bus service back to Bangsar LRT seeing for the first time.

Start Living

24th February 2013 (Sunday)

Day of Chap Goh Mei.. Blown by shooting bullets... Quite tiring when you can't stop the overflowing tears. When toleration has stroke to a direct red border line, feels the head is gonna burst insanely, thinking to break anything. Without the rights to speak, just don't know how much the heat I can swallow.

The feel of stomping out the unit, and run amok. Hopefully to be one way ticket in peace of mind. One thing - Gender confusion in public.

25th February 2013 (Monday)

Hell no... is this a habitat for rats? Unhygienic... The thickness of dust and sand all over the place.. Dirty toilet and kitchen.  I can't believe these girls live the longest in this house unit, and they are the most leisure in the house, watching Korean drama and Japanese animes beside studies that they consider no time to tidy the place they all been staying throughout the university life. Pathetic.   

I feel no warmth and welcome from the housemates on my first day of moving in, they are only getting along themselves, it can be my different appearance, it can be I'm not a student like them. And it can be I earn no confidence from being a total stranger.

I do tried giving them smile and greetings in the morning, yet they don't seem responding in a friendly manner, thus continuing what they were doing. I see...

5th March 2013 (Tuesday)

It's been a week now. Majority cleanliness condition has gotten better, from my sweat. Keeping the kitchen and toilet hygienic, neat and tidy takes a while to transform. The only thing that bothers me is their uncooperative action. They don't feel guilty about breaking utensil the previous day for steaming sweet corns ; dirtying the toilet floor that supposed to be shared by a working dude and me this morning. They have no basic knowledge of house care, yet it's too early to say. I would be LONG dead from mom's nag.

7th March 2013 (Thursday)

A total stranger, a consultant scolded me for not giving in the right amount of expected salary stated from the resume they wrote, in front of an interviewer. Oh.. should I SCOLD them for not clarify with me that they are consultant in the FIRST place?! Feel like they know best, they have forgotten their introduction and explanation of the situation clearly that I am in, bringing me confusion. Starting to voice loud in the phone to me, is that the trends attitude that everyone has became living in KL? Even brainwashing my brother that always scolding is the only way to improve people's efficiency.

Hearing noises of LRT, I look around... everyone hands on gadgets... 1 of 9 is reading, sewing and playing mini CheLing. It's a technology world I'm staying, unlike the sound made from singing birds, morning breeze, scent from natures in KK. So most of them plucking headsets blasting music?

 Good luck to people around me, unfortunately... bad luck comes to me... If mom knows this, she will kill me. Approached by these strangers, most likely in your mind is.. scammer. The sales girls are very convincing that they dare to give me their Mykad.. and drag me to their office in Seputeh to meet an officer named Ricky.

"Ricky" explains things from X to Z, (Not A to Z) I don't get it why I ended up in this situation... an awful lesson might become if they fail to meet me tomorrow in KL Sentral at 12.30pm of things they guaranteed. Maybe lesson have already learnt. My fault. Never hope of refunding, keep even more scramping and work very hard on my new job to earn my money to live and forget the scam money.

= To be Continue =

There's fewer things to say when the word 'vice versa' exists from all uncertainties, where there's no right or wrong answers to ease my mind. Just carry them as thoughts along my life where there's chance to find the connection I'm looking for.

Expecting others would accept the way I am as time went by? It is indeed a waste of effort, and should never hope for. I don't need anyone's sympathies, you are treating me below an average of a handicapped. I don't need your time to understand me because I'm not a patient.

If you want to be the so call friend, the least you need to do is go away. That would be much appreciated.

Cheater Leader

Good news is :

The clients have reviewed their fox tails today. Trying to CONFUSE me and my boss of their given project task to do, we start giving firm manners in every responses. Everytime they enter our office is all talking about lowering money and complain about other people charge lower. The fact is, the shop they referred is specialized in printing service only. We are specialized in graphic design + printing services, of course it's reasonable we charge higher not equivalent theirs.

“钱不是问题 !!” （Money is not the problem!!）sitting comfortingly as they said it out loud, but after a while they ask for bargain from my boss. Again and again and again and AGAIN.

The guy named Richard directed me to want this and that today, changing designs and adding more task, he didn't give in notice about adding work to boss, and leaving boss unattended is very rude.

It's a fuck ass when you meet clients who fuckingly want the best service from us designers but request totally low charges. Turn around they requests our original designs indirectly with full of excuses like can't see from their phones, the colour turn black and white from his laptop, and it's blur when printing a sample.

I always check the designs samples (whether it's viewable) before sending through emails. Just the fuck up they mess around. Knowing money is hard to earn, they know SO WELL this phrase then THINK before you ask for our services !! We don't work for free

Bad New is :

Refusing or disagree with the printing prices given, they want everything in rush, wanting our original designs but not ought to pay, they start to cheat.

 19th January 2013 - Saturday. Off day, and family day. Mom and I busying buying new year stocks and gifts at Thai Seng supermarket. When we were about to leave, my phone rang. My boss went on a troublesome day with the Kuchinger leader, complaining they found the printing sample blur. To confirm the true or lies, I print out with the same file size, it came out just right. AND, they are up to something.

Some designs might be too late for these dirty Kuchingers brought to their nearest printing shop. The boss would deal with the original Price Charge. The then after, I readjusted the designs into even lower resolution, so that they wouldn't even try to print it somewhere, not even A5 size.

Even worse, gave excuses about can't see this, can't open that, laptop old. It's not our problem, plus they paused when I complain about their lacking information with us of what they sms

Sample promotion :

1. Discount RM XX Free 32" LCD tv

2. Free Energy Cup

3. Free Vacuum

4. Alkaline + Energy Cup RM xxx

5. Discount RMxxx

6. Discount RMxxx

Just this, what are the meaning of these appear in the middle of nowhere? Another new design? What about it? Or adding into existing design I'm working ar the moment? If I don't understand the given informations, tell me how I'm gonna make a design?

Moreover, they love red SOO MUCH that little pink is unacceptable even though the pink suits good in the design. Too MAN makes people stubborn and bossy, I wonder how their wives enduring not wearing pink in front of them for the rest of their lives...

Euterpe

Guilty Crown

Feel like making my own for this personally because I found none that has both Romaji and English translation in any site. It took me some time to get it satisfied perfection.

9 - 1 - 2013

New Year is just an "after deadline" day. A goal that ends there, either continue or make anew. To me, a new year day is just another normal day. Celebrating every 365 days has became a used life to lame, many couples making love and family outing with kids till wee hours, watching fireworks, partying in clubs and pubs, drunk the way.

I didn't watch fireworks from the balcony. Little thing to know is that... I have survived for another 365 days, and age. A happy hour at home, watching Jigoku Shoujo. That's how the time flies. It's peace and quiet

ACCEL WORLD

Watching anime quite some time now, just something to freshen mind, catching dreams, something new. Of course, there's education about morality in every watch. There's a lot to watch, there's no mean of wasting time, as long as we know how to cope up with time.

Finished this recently, although there's a lot of questions in my head on how and what's its full story behind from the main protagonist, deuteragonist and main antagonist. There's a video game, 428: In a Blockaded Shibuya related to this somehow.

Doing lots of work given in a single day and bringing home, really... sometimes does confused on which is which, and which must follow according to related design concepts.

 More than 10 things and subs to handle except cabinets draws, logo, website, price  & material negotiate and printing. Hope can done as early as possible.