Fault

Teaming up work with guys, they treated me lightly, think about money, gamble, sport games, bragging work and pride; grouping with girls, chit-chating, talking dress, cosmetics, boyfriends and complaints about work... ; my kind? I am more afraid to mix around with them, their lives or with their girlfriends, other than what we all share that kind of  fate life, many of them smoke and drink, and have long hours work and commitment that I hardly have the chance to ask them out, (asking out means spending more money), I just don't suit any side.

I probably don't know how to be a woman or a man other than be myself. The truth is, I'm confused when I don't know how long I can hold my sanity.

Just what the meaning of be myself in here anyway? Was it my unsocialized manner as fault?

Uncle John is my car tutor, and was my mother's fellow neighbour lived next door before I was born.

He was diagnosed with skin cancer two years ago due to overexposed to strong sunlight because of his job, during the time Ivy and I had our driving lessons. He taught well, and strict, he was once my mom's tutor too =w= so that car has my mom pictured memory in it.

I found out his health condition recently.. He has been hospitalized for almost half a year after an unsuccessful operation, the wounds have not been recovered and showed sign of rot, and further operations was made by attaching skin from the other parts of his body.

He had been revived twice back from the dead.. paralyzed and fed on oxygen tube and food. I was so emotionally sad about his struggles at old age.. I can't imagine how his wife, Aunty Lee felt all these time be in his side..

14th December 2014, Sunday - 2.39pm, I finally able to speak with him, I was happy to hear his voice, he told me to give my best on my job,  and I promised that I will give in. I wanted to see him.

Dye Hair

5th December 2014, Friday

I dye my hair at age 25 for the first time. Inexperience but fun. Now I still think my hair is black.

 Getting things ready, mirror wet tissues, elastic band

Open up and read instructions

Glad there's step by step for avatar like me.

 Let's take a photo of before. Clumsy hair ?

Applying the mixture

It took me quite few times to reapply in some parts, well it's my first try afterall there's no perfection.

Hmm, I think this colour tone is fine with me, not too yellow, later people think my head is yellow.

Companion

Camel Active shoes

Shoe is a companion, they go wherever you go, and protect your feet.

Such durable and sturdy cool looking shoes are hard to find for my size because they are made for men... unfair..

Searching new shoes for 3 days onwards, and this is the result.

Taipei Trip - 13th ~ 19th November 2014

Taipei Family Trip

Rao He and Xi Men Ding night markets full of Taiwan's specialty snack food, but don't get lost in the streets.

14th November 2014 (Friday)

Tapei Zoo

Lucky for mom to have close range with a gorilla photograph

Finally brother got a hold of a butterfly.

I at Penguin House

 15th November 2014 (Saturday)

The Respect

Mother meets her late father in Chi En Memorial Park.

16th & 7th November 2014 (Sunday, Monday)

Taking brunch with brother and mother in Jiufen

18th November 2014 (Monday)

Taipei 101

Brother and I stand tall at Taipei 101

The Meet

25th October 2014, Saturday

Whenever I feel lonely, I just sit quietly.
I dreamt about her in my sleep, that's the least I can to ease emotion

That long wait meet,
I stood just to watch her from a distance,
how long have I not seen her in person?
What should I say about..when the time she's heartbroken?

To her, that hug may not mean anything but greetings.
To me, it's warmth.

The meet was short,
Still, I wonder if she has something to tell me.

Yeah.. you are right.
I shouldn't stop my time here,
I just want to hear that from you.
to release myself.

The part way hug.. is the answer I have been searching.

Sorry for digging the old past, but those were the volume of time we spent together that far.

 To share
Simple Graphic

20 - 10 - 2014 , Monday

Finding a reasonable explanation called answer, the answer that I have been searching in the clouds through out the years, a few ends but some ends with no answers continue and new one comes.

Searching each spark that can light the matches in the dark, more importantly, that spark must comes from the heart.

17th October 2014, Friday

Artist: Haru Ichinose (Hisako Kanemoto)
Lyrics by: Kanata Nakamura
Composed by: Atsushi Harada

 Lyrics

Dare ni demo aru deshou
Kakushiteru sono kizu
Soshite yasashisa wo mananda
Mamoru koto oboeta

Dakara sou hito wa ashita e aruiteku
Toki ni wa setsunakute… dakedo hitori ja nai

Itsudatte akaruku
Hidamari no mannaka
Waratteirareru you na
Sonna hibi tsudzuku ka na

Kurai kao shinai yo
Naitari mo shinai yo
Kimi ga egao ni nareru nara
Watashi made hotto suru

Koushite hito wa dandan tsuyoku natte
Itsuka wa taisetsu na hito wo mamoreru ne

Hi no ataru kono michi
Arukitsudzukete yuku
Yorimichi mo shite ii yo
Tonari ni wa kimi ga ite

Kokoro ni kimeta mirai ni hora sukoshizutsu

Kinou, kyou, ashita sugite tsunagatteku

Itsudatte akaruku
Hidamari no mannaka
Waratteirareru you na
Sonna hibi

Hi no ataru kono michi
Arukitsudzukete yuku
Yorimichi mo shite ii yo
Tonari ni wa kimi ga ite
Zutto zutto zutto


 English
Everyone has them, right?
Scars they try to conceal
And then I was taught kindness
And I learned of protecting

Yes, that’s why people walk on towards tomorrow
It may be painful sometimes… but you’re not alone

It’s always bright
In the middle of a sunny spot
I wonder if the days when it seemed like
We could smile and laugh will continue

Don’t make a dark face
And don’t cry either
If you can get used to smiling
Then I’ll feel relieved

In this way, people become stronger and stronger
So someday they’ll be able to protect the person they care about, right?

I will continue to walk along
This sunlit road
But it’s alright to make a few stops along the way
If I have you beside me

You know, in the future my heart decided upon, little by little
I tie together and surpass yesterday, today, and tomorrow

It was always bright
In the middle of that sunny spot
On those days when it seemed like
We could smile and laugh

I will continue to walk along
This sunlit road
But it’s alright to make a few stops along the way
If I have you beside me
Always, always, always




( I don't own content and song, they belong to the right owner. )

Sengoku Astray Gundam

8th October 2014, Wednesday

I had my survey on internet the previous night, looking for a Gundam with Master Grade. Many I eyed on are quite cool and special. Found an outlet named Vhobby on the 4th Floor that actually has similar price with Low Yat's, and compare to Toy Rus and Jusco, it's cheaper.

In Vhobby, most I have in my list are on shelf display, glad I did some homework, and decide I would take this - Sengoku Astray Gundam as my first Master Grade piece.

 Surprise. THis Master Grade has more pieces ?

 As usual, I tick every part before I start and this took a short while.

 Finishing this on my 2nd night (Thursday) . Compare the size. The shape is almost similar here, yet it's more detail.

 3rd day - (Friday) building the arm.

 4rd day - (Saturday) - I have off day today, and get to spend longer time stick my ass to work this mecha. The complete arm and shoulder and waist attached. Now it's taller than Mars sitting.

Flight Unit Red Astray beside, now who's the big brother ??

 Feeling no idea until I finish this, it's actually the foot of the mecha... big foot

Left is the complete leg.

And it's almost the same height with Mars' body + waist + leg

Second last is the head. Ugly...

 After putting on the shell, the face look better.

 The complete head

 Marvelous~

 For the twin katana, with names craved each.

 Sengoku Astray Gundam is finally complete on 12th October 2014, 3.27am.

Who's the elder now ? Who's the boss?!

Sengoku Astray Gundam with 17cm tall, and 10cm wide, very powerful monstrous look, overpowered little Astray.

Hot blood and fearless Astray the first (small) challenges the Monstrous mecha.

 In the end, little Astray lost.

Gundam Exia (RG)

24th September 2014, Wednesday

One hand will not clap, so as One Gundam wouldn't stand out without another partner.

So I decided to search another comrade and went to look into the rack. What caught me an eye was this Gundam has exceptionally stand out broadsword, twin blades and different shape of shield compared to others.

Gundam Exia.

Fascinating and catching eyes just by the cool looking robot ~

This buddy took me separate days to a week time to finish due to the previous of nonstop 6-7 hours sleep time experience... of course it wouldn't not feel enjoyable.

This model is a RG, Excitement Embodied. So it has a set of robot skeleton parts.

This is skeleton leg

I don't own any Gundam tool kits, this is one of the basic to have to cut out the parts. That's the complete right leg.

With just one leg, has more than 30 pieces of parts to construct one robotic leg.

The body (Front)

The Body (Side)

 The Arms, well... made little mistake and wrong cut but not a bit matter.

This is how the inner construct head look, applied with green stickers.

The fully construct head. Awesome

Gundam complete.

Armor Heroes welcome the new member, Gundam Exia into the familly. 

(Right) Aero's son, Gundam Exia. My make up family tree XD

** Pat Pat

Yeap, it's smaller than regular toy. I was surprised too for the first one to compare.

The emotional story part. The son hugs the father. The Uncle Mars watches.

The~~ E...

WAIT !! Still forgot something.

Absolutely right!

Constructing weapons

The twin blades, not twin though. Just a name I made.

The Shield inside and cover.

And lastly, the most excitement is this broadsword.

The weapon set done.

Gundam Exia

The broadsword is almost the same height of it.

POSE

 

 Close Up

 

= VERY SATISFIED =