Thursday, August 22, 2019

22th August 2019, Thursday

I was afraid..
to take up new task
Probably I'm not a challenger,
fears not able to deliver the request that one asks.

It take courage and responsibility to do so.
I don't always take, unless I fully understand to commit the task
that I'm about to take.
Somehow I don't have the choice, and I take it as a serious practice.

I wanted to be as brave as a soldier.
I wanted to have a clear path,
a clear mind to act through

Because the cycle of disruption never ends,
it comes unexpectedly, ruining your schedule
and mood so easily.
so when it comes, I need to be prepared mentally
to deal with it as soon as possible
to get back on schedule track.



Thursday, August 8, 2019

7th August 2019, Wednesday

What I and my group of colleagues witness the two large military planes flying extreme close on sight near from the workplace. Those planes were amazingly big, is Captain America inside? XD
8 August 2019, Thursday

Feeling strange all the sudden to leave office around exact working hour, seeing the sky still bright and watching the setting sun down the horizontal. 

I have been eating alot meat with very less greeny leaves in my daily diet.. It's getting me fatter, I can feel my oily tummy bouncing when I take a light jump or jog.. And very worry about my imbalance health as I have always been working on desk chair for more than regular working hours.. without proper sleeping time

It was the time that biggest event has ended. All designers are finally relaxed and less pressure.

I'm persuaded to leave with them. 

But yesterday's work should have done faster.. Many of my work are scanned through by the senior art director with quite of the mistake and corrections.

I felt I wasn't done enough with improvement and still creative stuck and bad time management. Was I procastinating..? I would have been shunned if I'm a guy.. Still struggling

Other designers, their professionality help shape their performance and time management at the same time. I lack that professional... I doubt my level.. 30-40 below their equal level in the party...