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想哭，但哭不出的时候；

想表达，但想不出字来形容；

想帮，被排坼；

要爱，得不到；

闷是烦恼。

这些算什么？

看看自己，望望他人。

外面还有人

吃不饱，

住不好，

怀不暖。

一餐是烦恼。

Translation

When you need a cry, you couldn't let it out.

When you want to express, you couldn't think of a word.

You wish to help, but were ignored.

You wish to be loved, but it didn't reach you.

Boredom is a stress

Is that all?

Look at yourself, look around.

There's people outside who,

aren't well fed,

live insecure,

dis-warmed.

One meal is a stress.

27 June 2010 Saturday

11.02am. Insisting taking bus, separate with my mom and grandma, I kept my feet on the road to my destination ------ STTSS (Sabah Tshung Tsin Secondary School) 

The weather is damn nice, no sunny, no hot, breezy wind + carbon dioxide, of course. SHould bring my flu mask next time.

Crossing through Tropical Park. Oh? workers are draining out dirty waters in artificial pond, hope they don't drain my cousins out too....  = '' = 'Heey ! YOU ! you want my knuckles?!'

Whenever I walk pass the mini electric tower area, I always look up, and give a weird faces at it. That tower is officially long enough to be unclean, that parasites grow around the top of the tower, is that an electric plant? no... that's a TREE ...

Keeping my feet steady when going down the hill, and slowly reach Luyang, crowds gather on coffee shop for lunch while I'm still heading on. The time is 11.50am, estimating time, I will reach there around 12.10pm. No time to lose, catching breath, racing cross the traffic road. RUN !! CARS !! he a he a he a he..... 

My inside is totally blank, like memory loss, but my face shows up like I had killed lots of people. (just describe, not real kill) Damai Dewan is having a Band Competition, many cars park by, and people rolling drums and electric guitars and other music instruments. This will end at 3pm, around the time I leave the school.

Teaching freebies is something hard just like teaching on class, depends on how I cope the situation well with game ideas and discipline them. I'm still not ready to teach, but have to try to do it well so I won't make a waste all the way to here for nothing.

I found a technique and taught them cooperate with spirit by counting steps by steps among themselves in one. Slowly the practice turn out well, but the role they play also turning slow, like playing Taiji.... XD

 

2.45pm, the class is over. I get down to buy a drink. aha.. the canteen reuse plastic cups replacing hard-paper made cups. The cup of non-packet drink is caused RM2. After I finished drink, returning the plastic cup, I will get my RM1 back.

Returning to home, I felt like my dad who always walk straight when window shopping without walking into  shop lots. So, since I came so far, I won't want to keep my curiosity in the closest forever, so I open up, and walk into part of Luyang shop lots.

 

aa... I remembered when I'm just primary school, my mom used to take me to a grocer shop and buy vegetables & fish. I was afraid stepping dirty waters on the wet tile. My hands always didn't reach the aunty sitting in the middle (the pasar cashier), the butchers always smiled at us when passing their fish lots.

Luyang supermarket is a play where me and my bro always like chasing on stairs and hide and seek, play 'who find mom, wins'. The KFC? nice innovation, I felt like going in for a meal, but NO !

The Diamond restaurant, popular with seafood dishes and popular with crowds that wait more than 30minutes for 'dabao'. I never been to the Pick n' Pay there, and don't mind stepping in for... market survey XD I'm surprised, there's sushi bar inside, a lot more choices of goods, food, cans and stuffs that I rarely seen selling in such mini store, abit like Tong Hing supermarket. Those drinks are pulling my wallet out. NO STOP ! This Pick n' Pay compare to the one in my area is haih..... small, no sushi bar, lack of choice. The only same thing they have is , EXPENSIVE PRICES.

Okay, chop chop off my way, home about 5pm. my legs is calling SOS, but my body isn't, maybe I had gained some weight, that my leg couldn't carry ? or I sit too long on the chair that my legs muscle has shrinken?

My dinner of today, 2 packs of Cintan Laksa with processed crab meat and a vegetarian can food named ...... "Buddha Jumps Over th Wall " in chinese 佛跳墙 XD I can't believe that they named it so long, but think of it, it's the shortest in English XD kya HA Haaa Haaaa ~~~~!!!

Completely, death is finding me. Let the sleep do the rejuvenation !

Preserve or Demolish?

Pudu Prison taking off at 10pm

I don't know if this can be a tourism places, but it's a historic building afterall, why demolish? Keep them whole, that's where the dead rest.

Here's some source I found in a forum, by CyberianHusky

Uproar over looming demolition of Pudu jail
May 29, 08 11:29am

Plans to demolish historic Pudu jail, where allied prisoners were imprisoned and executed during the brutal Japanese occupation, have Second World War veterans up in arms.

The site of prisoner-of-war tortures, interrogations and modern-day infamous hangings is set to be torn down later this year, to be replaced by a commercial centre and condominium complex on the prime area next to Bukit Bintang.

"Pudu jail should be preserved," said Charles Edwards, 89, who was a private in the Australian 8th Division, part of Commonwealth forces that defended Malaya, as it was then known, at the outset of the 1939-1945 war.

"So many Australians and allied soldiers died in places like Pudu, defending democracy and the lives of the people of Malaya," Edwards said from his home outside Melbourne.

"They made the ultimate sacrifice and Pudu is a reminder of that sacrifice which led to the freedom we enjoy now," he told AFP.

Japanese forces swept down the peninsula within days of the December 8, 1941 landings on the beaches of Singora and Pattani in southern Thailand and in Kota Bharu in Malaysia's northern Kelantan state.

By January 11, they had taken Kuala Lumpur which had been abandoned by the retreating British and pushed further south, capturing Singapore on Feb 15, 1942 and bringing the Malayan Campaign to an end in just 70 days.

With just 30,000 soldiers, the Japanese captured 150,000 British and Commonwealth troops in what wartime British prime minister Winston Churchill called "the worst disaster and greatest capitulation of British history."

"I was one of the first 30 Australians taken prisoner by the Japanese in World War II," said Edwards, who was captured in Johor.

In exchange for a new prison elsewhere

Along with 1,000 other men, Edwards spent nine months in Pudu, which had been built to house just 600 prisoners.

The cells were horrific, he said, each with a window the size of a shoebox.

"The conditions were shocking with wounded men, the cookhouse and the hastily dug 'benjos' (latrine pits) all within metres of each other," he said.

"Men were milling around with no leadership, filthy dirty, lice-filled and surviving on a half a cup of water per day.

"More men were brought in as the days went by until there were about 600 men in this small area of about 20 by 20 metres."

At great danger to himself, Edwards helped six men escape but they were caught and brought back to the jail where they were executed.

Edwards was one of many POWs who were sent on to Changi jail in Singapore and then to Thailand to build the the infamous Siam-Burma death railway, from which most never returned.

After the end of the war, Pudu continued to be used as a prison. In July 1986, Briton Kevin Barlow and Australian Brian Chambers were hanged there, the first Westerners to lose their lives under Malaysia's tough anti-narcotics laws.

The two were convicted of drug trafficking in an internationally publicised trial, and an appeal for clemency by the Australian prime minister was turned down.

Pudu was closed to make way for a prison museum but poor visitor numbers spelt a quick end to the venture and since 2005 it has been used as a holding centre for prisoners undergoing trial.

The Urban Development Authority is now preparing to tear down the jail. Its chairman Baharum Mohamad says the site was handed over in exchange for the construction of a new prison in Bukit Jalil.

But the decision to demolish Pudu has upset many.

"It is a historic building and there should be some trace of it," said Ahmad Sarji, chairman of the Malaysian Heritage Board.

"Even if you could keep the facade, about 20 feet (6 metres) to the left and right of the main gate which shows the date of its founding, that would be good," he said.

Lack of interest in Pudu's fate

bok mansion destruction 211206 aerial view of demolitionHistorians say Pudu's fate reflects a lack of interest in heritage in Malaysia, where significant buildings continue to be torn down, including the charming century-old Bok House (right) in downtown Kuala Lumpur.

An early example of the fusion between European and local architecture, it was nevertheless demolished in 2007 after only a brief outcry.

Military historian Brian Farrell, who has written extensively on the Malayan Campaign, said the authorities should consider preserving part of the building, one of the few intact 19th century prisons in the region.

"The real significance of Pudu is that it is right in the heart of the city and yet it has survived intact and undamaged," he said. "If nothing else, at least preserve some of the walls, the gate and have a small museum."

In contrast, plans to tear down the infamous Changi Prison in neighbouring Singapore were met with stiff opposition in 2001.

"When news leaked that Changi was to be demolished, there was a chorus of protests not only from locals but also from many overseas," says Jeyathurai Ayadurai, director of the Changi Prison Museum.

"Five Australian ministers wrote to the Singapore government asking for a reversion of the decision," he said.

"It was partly due to this protest and outcry that a section of the Changi Prison wall and its iconic gates were preserved."

Pudu is unlikely to benefit from such a campaign as each year sees the number of veterans decline.

"Unfortunately, I do not think there are enough voices left here in Australia or in the UK to launch a protest in the same way Changi supporters managed," said Australian historian Lynette Silver.

(sumber: malaysiakini.com)

Chained

Don't say mountain hiking or going island...

Even then, "watching movies is a waste of money " in her head. "crowded, pickpockets, stink,"

Decision-making, most is rejected. (very unsatisfied, unless I hide)

I'm 21, I could see chains around me.

You hold me too tight that you slowed me.

That's why they're high level as I view them.

Very upset