31st December 2011

31st December is the last day of every year, and its also my mom's birthday.

it's a day where everyone hang out at the cafes, shopping with a gang of friends, watching firecrackers at the night beach.

It's a  time, where everyone wishes a new year's coming with more excitements, more surprises, success.

It's a new path to expand our knowledge, to further our goals to achievement levels, to continue their journey, just like solving a maze.

Sound of a banging door is getting louder each passing years, I don't know if this is a good changing sign for each other or not, but I just hope mothers understand their children more than anyone, vice versa.

I got fed up the way mom wants me to be, I did tried my best to be mom's loving child, but all the responses were disappointing. When all disappointment lies down, I want to be myself, who I am. Mom will stop me or cries over,

"where's my old baby Elaine." holding on a 5 year old graduated photo of me.

"I'm right here, grown up,, mom!!" I yelled.

I had my silent treatment just five days ago, so just ruined a public holiday in the early morning. Great.. fine, I will rebel.

Tomorrow is mom's birthday. It's a frustrating hours to find a present today, having lots of questions and answers spinning around my head,

should I buy or should I not ;

usable or not suitable ;

beautiful or unfit ;

too expensive or fair price ;

the most important is positive response or negative ?

There was one introduced, I was sure it's a good gift for her age, however the problem was unaffordable. Forcefully to place back to the rack and search again, again, again, again. I found it, but wasn't sure it's fitting with clothes or not.

I am sooo sooo sooo desperately wanted to have a BigMac and fries for lunch, but I know I need keep the rest and use it well, for tomorrow. I tried stalls that I never went to, an fresh warm Egg Tart and an chicken puff, that taste like Char Siew, and a pack of Potato Chip I longed for.

My Gift to everyone

No solid presents sorry, but virtual present I made this for everyone, Heppi KrissMesss

Heppi KrisMes & Neuw Yaar

Well, I don't celebrate Christmas since Grade 4, because parents think we have grown up. For just finding excitement, we watch shows in the streets or shopping around praising the decorations that everyone had put lots of work and time.

Another year is going to end. Thank you for reading. Enjoy

LOST CHILD

 Tamashii no Doukoku

It was a theme song from a game named LOST CHILD

This is a minutes of the intro

Full Song

 Lyrics
Furi yamanu ame wa tada kanashiku
Bokura no moto ni furisosogi
Tozasareta toki no ryuusen ni
Bokura wa futatabi tsumi o miru

Tasogare ni ukabu tsuki to tsuki
Arawareta kimi no kage ni kono inochi o sakebu

ETHEREAL no kaze ga fuki susabu tanima
Tamashii no doukoku hibikasete
Kakedashita saki ni miru saihate no tou
Akehanachi ai ni yukou

Owari yuku sekai nageki nagara
Anata to tomo ni kieta sora
Tohou mo nai aka ni kegasareru
Anata e no omoi tsumi o okashite

Kanashimi to kutsuu o seoi nagara
Sore demo nao iki tsuzukeru to iu no nara

MATERIAL no kioku yomigaeru inochi
Eien ni doukoku hibikasete
Sono imi o toi kakeru saihate no tou
Soshite futatabi aeru toshite mo

Dou ni demo nareba ii konna sekai nado
Dou ni demo nareba ii konna inochi nado
Tada futari ga soba ni irareru no nara

ETHEREAL no kaze ga fuki susabu tanima
Tamashii no doukoku hibikasete
Kakedashita saki ni miru saihate no tou
Akehanachi ai ni yukou

Soshite boku wa tsuyoku naru
Kanashimi ni makenuyou..
Nikushimi ni makenuyou...

Doomsday Preppers

Everything is in crisis. Populations, Food supplies, nature, oil fuel, politics, ecconomies causing crimes, unwanted happens.

Now's that some US citizens have already planning their future - Nuclear plant blast, End Of the World. I just watched this programme namely Doomsday Preppers from National Geographic. There's families fears that their future will be the end of the world and disasters going around that they have started stocking up goods and well prepared planning for the kids ever since starting 2008, so that they wouldn't be too overly affected by shorten food supplies and shelthers.

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

After this, should we all start preparing now? To face the end of the world? To protect our family, giving them full secure and enough daily food supplies which they have been stocking up? Very inspiring. Must watch.

Hobbycon 2011

Okay, tomorrow (11-12-2011) is the day. And finally... this year, I got some shares of joy to the audiences. My feeling now is just like taking part competition back yearsssssssss ago. It's the same.

The Day Before Hobbycon 2011 (I attended the rehearsal. Looks like the system going better) On stage, when I listen to the music, my body just moved with the music. Honestly, I like that kind of feel, I don't know I can do the smooth move like that. I enjoyed myself yet tonight I gonna practice again, as I can't guarantee I might get the same good feeling for tomorrow's performance. It's quite a pity... I sees many happy families, happy couples around..

1st day of Hobbycon, my captured photos were bad. I didn't take the cosplayer photos.

So glad that this year's Hobbycon is holding in Suria Sabah. A great place I can reach with no worries. And oh, I listen to the Voice Actress Ms. Aimi singing, for LIVE. Very exciting moment.

Forming lines, cosplayers in groups. Call upon groups are to match to the center and introducing themselves one by one and group photos.

 One of our MC, Nasa.

We have this great event, thanks to our organizer.

Cosplayers having short posing and dancing at the center.

Female version Mc Donald girl

 

DoTa suits

Book Town and Sakuya on a volunteer performance

Really bad time, I can't snap much good photos to post up here.

I only took the 1st group. = =

That mid noon, gangs went to seaport to visit Logos Hope.
www.gbaships.org

Book Fair


Cafe

For More photos, you can look through my facebook.

Liittle Time make it WorthH

Getting pissed this morning, but silent is the best. Getting late, still active at night. I temporary free of work load, I spend some hours just for myself, my dreamland, my little admire.

No matter how upset I am, I still dreamt of her, I know she's back last week. Although we are living in the same planet call Earth, the same country, the same island, same state, same race, but just because of different religions, we are unable to be together, but our hearts still touched one another from outside boundary. That's just from my thoughts. No one wants anyone to be enemy forever.

Did laundry, eat late dinner, Facebook and blog updates, watch Youtube and practice singing in short 3 hours. I have burger bun, two cheddar cheese cut-slice, Tuna chunk top with limes. Plain water, enough sugar for today.

 It's going to practice a few more times for the song I prepare for coming event. - Hobbycon 2011-

There will be a group singing on the last day.

This year, I willing to heat on dance for my NS buddy, who will be vocal on stage performance. Together with Rex, Book Town and I. I know our dance isn't much inspiring but we enjoy doing it, and try our best to make a fun atmosphere.

Watch  < 康熙來了 !! and Miss Mr. short dance. They are cool, skilful, standard group performance. If we are serious with our performance, make it best for ourselves with much standard demands.

Miss Mr. 中性定调选秀 2009 (Only in Taiwan)

 

pcos.insulitelabs.com/


Alot chemical names, I will just simplify

SUNLIGHT, Damai. (opposite Burger King) 

All organics, Buckwheat, wheat germ, wheat flour, grains, soy...

Mom decides (buy) everything herself without discussion with me. I don't even know it's all for me, follow like tiger eat cats food.

=CONTINUE=

寂寞时。。工作，节目陪着我。

烦恼时，床儿怀抱我。

心事风儿动摇我。

伤心 Shandy 亲向我。

气氛震爽我而快乐

Know Us

Parents should understand, 父母该了解

Short clip Videos parts

Full
非關命運 - A - (7/7) 2010-07-28
非關命運 - A - (6/7) 2010-07-28
非關命運 - A - (5/7) 2010-07-28
非關命運 - A - (4/7) 2010-07-28
非關命運 - A - (3/7) 2010-07-28
非關命運 - A - (2/7) 2010-07-28
非關命運 - A - (1/7) 2010-07-28

我孩子是同志 （1/6）

continue

爸媽冏很大 - B - (2)
爸媽冏很大 - B - (3)
爸媽冏很大 - B - (4)
爸媽冏很大 - B - (5)
爸媽冏很大 - B - (6)


Daughters of Club Bilitis (shared from)
DoCB (1/4)
DoCB (2/4)
DoCB (3/4)
DoCB (4/4)

TABOO

27-11-2011 (Sat), TABOO

in

Taiwan

MissTer

This is only a small part of MissTer's performance.Found in youtube.

MissTer Qiu Qiu, Chris, and Chiao (From Left)

I think there's a lot more shows I missed. I really want to watch them perform.

This is a practice photo part of MissTer
MissTer Chiao, Chris and Jin (From Left)  

Ei? Where's MissTer Milk? probably not in this photo perform. Heard said Milk has emergency absent. Aih, can't fly over to Taiwan to watch them MissTer LIVE.

 Misster Qiu Qiu, Jin, Chris, Chiao

This Is Who I Am

Late night, mom found some articles which I should really need to flip through. There's good and bad.

pcos.insulitelabs.com
LiveStrong.com
natural-hormones.net
Associatedcontent.com

Well, from what I know, my "DISORDER" Syndrome has a name... PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), and because of that, mom found and laughed at a topic name CRIME linked to High Testosterone Women. By the way, I'm suddenly treated like a criminal... - -lll. How nice !

The problem is I can easily get high blood pressure, diabetes, cancer ...etc if I don't control my daily consumptions. Control sugar, more exercise is main priority. DamN, biscuits.... cakes.... Simple said, eat healthy.  

I know my truth, of why I'm different among the so-called normal people, because I was born this way. Life is moving on and I'm living happily the way I　am. Don't blame yourself, mother.

Yep, this is who I am.

Weirdo Weather...

It's getting worse every year. There's nothing can save our Planet Earth. All we can do is prolong its lifespan, and continue to live until we stop breathing.

Hero scientists and engineers still haven't give to the earthlings by inventing all sorts of possible Travel-Spaceships, finding the another planet and doing research. Probably they really hope they can make movies become real and futuristic.

My neighbourhood

I don't know, the heavy on last Saturday do gave a lot inconveniences to road users, shoppers and buyers. Penampang is most popular with fast floods, like a valley = =/ and there's many other areas like Luyang, crowded town.

Collegemates Reunion - 360, Damai

But that didn't stop me from meeting my collegemates the night. We still can hang out at Damai and plan movie the next day. Everyone felt there's a gap around ourselves, besides work, we talk less and less... it's like there's no other topics to share. However, no one mention "Let's go (home)" even it's pass midnight.

My own photos, My own creations

My own photos, My own creations

(Horror Movie)

From my house.

(Story Book)

 My school, Tshung Tsin.

(Self-made Magazine)

Understanding

Working working working.. Just trying out all my money-making skills into potential abilities to help others, and sharpen them. As long as I don't let them go wasted behind my back, there's more to come.

It's part of giving myself an identity.

Loading works, tiring and sleepy. I do regret for not arranging my time properly, so I took the hard way staying up late working till dawn before deadlines.

I don't earn much, but I love my jobs. I adore my bosses and their families as colleagues and teachers. I know how it's hard to earn money for my family, but it's harder to earn the trust from my parents. Maybe it's because I'm a freshman society and through a young-adults struggle period is just  a moving progress towards a stable condition in order to pass parents' exam to be a true independent person.

Life is not just about exciting journey but understanding. I maybe having different perspectives, different point of views, and different thinking,different feelings that set upon my identity than others, I'm still a little life living in this world, I do hope people understand me, treat me equally, not one way to discrimination.

Busy Month of October

it's been a while,
so many things happen
So many news going round and round,

Still...
all living things just live their shit cycle of life as normal
Yes, it's a cycle.
Like recycling,
how cheap we are
as a life form.

But, nothing can create our mind,
because it's our will,
not destiny.
If you're, then you're an idiot by 'Gods' send.
Listen to your heart says,
because you only have one.

Thai Flood critical

Thai Flood - thestaronline.com.my

I'm worried. This flood comes on the week they travelled to Thailand. On the wall she posted, seems they are safe.

Holding the phone,
I couldn't dare to dial...
Fear to have mix feeling over again
and step back the same road
happened back a year ago.
I decided not to call,
keep moving on what I have been walking towards.
Just hope she and her group return safely.

The '' Lunar Halo ''

This is found on thestar.com.my , yea I read the news just minutes ago and I realised they were talking about the Lunar Halo last night.

And it was so coincidence, I was working late in front my buddy when I noticed the bright moon visible in the sky which I thought it's very beautiful and snapped a photo of it.

Date Taken : 2.24am, 09-10-2011

I can say I like snapping sky photos. Overall, this one is the biggest and brightest moon I ever snapped. Awesome~

When I share this to my mom, she recalled that she had seen this Lunar Halo back in 30 years ago coupling with dad.

Remote Viewing

Learn Remote Viewing.com

I don't know how ridiculous it is, but I do know I had remote viewing in dreams by accident before, and when it happens, I asked myself "Why this look familiar? How can that be? I can't believe I can see a future scene that is about about 1-2 years after, how I did that?!"

Next thing I do wish to know what will happen to our future Earth, where will we? Where will I be?

But.... learning to see people or object in far away distance, can this be learn?? It does sound impossible to me, how about you?

Hair Loss

Most people except military service would fear of losing their youth appearance, especially the hair.

You know, falling hair is normal when aging comes. I know a few, he is just 2-3 years older but he looks like a 40-50 age man because of hair loss.

familydoctor.org

I lost hair when depression or after a hair wash (maybe I dry too hard?), so... my room is never clean.

My Road under Constructionsss

Pushing myself doesn't work for my ideas to come, I can't be fast or too slow. I would learn to observe, observe and observe to emerge my ideas.

Things can't rush, it will only make me slower and more unwanted hardship. It would sounds selfish to my family who work hard to raise me, and I'm taking my pleasure and relaxation. However, it's better to be prepared than to cause unnecessary troubles to my family.

I'm doing much better, atleast I'm not standing on the Start Line, but wouldn't take me further until each construction is finished. For those has most support, please cherish your chance to move farther as you can.

Started my job 3 days earlier than said 15th of September, which is a good news.

Creative of design is the fresh month, I have to set my bedtime hours backing slowly. With the latest record, 2 hours sleep and about 1 hour rest from OT on my work just this morning. 9am back office OT again for half day.

Taking little afternoon on Facebook, before I put on the headset cap. Listening to the music peacefully, I felt like I'm floating in my own little world.

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Mooncake Festival - HoMe Pose

Here I am!

Ain't a pro, just the fun!

Better than quiet.

My hand's on itchy, 

make the rest of the night more worth, 

even it's just me! 

Eat Mooncake, watch the sky. Did I just wrote "sky" ? Definitely, there's no moon after rain poured, I was PosING.

Needless to say...

It's sweeter than normal cake twice as much.

It's fun, posing, capturing, and collecting own photos, edit my own. I was motivated by the Mooncake box which we received earlier.

Supposed to have a few snap shots on the Mooncake box and package, it turned out to be more in-coming missions which heat me up to make the night meaningful with flashsss.

It was nothing behind the scene, I was still laughing of my "one man show on balcony"
(don't know what the neighbours think "insane!" on me) 

but once I look back on my last edition pose (above),

my playlist played the song - STAY by MissTer

Atmosphere is much dampen...