I Despise Life

21 October 2017

Dirtying hands just for money to feed love ones and alive.. ?
That's not happiness..

despised me more for living in human life cycle.

Face behind mask

I despise life

My Favourite Food Cravings

Sushi Zanmai, branch in Avenue K

I'm always super excited with Japanese food, so much that I don't mind spending more for its texture and freshness prepared by chefs.

 Topshell with spice sauce

Taste chewy, aroma spice that match with it.

 Toro / Otoro ( fatty tuna )

It's my first time tasting such delicacy.

It has slightly pinkish-red colour with visible fats, I can feel the soft texture with fats contained as I chew. Its fats touches my tongue and dip into the rice, it almost feels like melting. It has no strong fish smell, lighter than salmon.

 Salmon slice

Natto, Tamago, Tempura Prawn, Grilled salmon, Maguro

With just these costed me

RM71.60

=w=lll

The Surprising Calls

11th October 2017, Wednesday

After my freelance work done a day ago, it's about time I come out my room for some fresh air and have craving my favourite food.

I decided my next dinner would be in Sushi Zanmai, The Garden Mall before 5pm. I don't really like crowded queue, so I plan my time early for a good meal.

Seated on a 4 seats table, too much space sure makes me abit lonely. Hungry, I ordered sushi and Tempura prawn rice and cold green tea.

 It's a delicacy for raw Salmon slice dip with soy sauce, I enjoy alot, especially its generosity thick of the fish slice, unlike Salmon Don which has greatly reduce its quality, very thin, and very small potion of fish eggs topping, even lower than a serving salmon sushi which I gradually stopped ordering.

More sushi on table, some how I regret to my greedy and glutinous stomach. The last five-six bites was a bit struggling to swallow, I used green tea to finish it in the end.

I posted a photo of Nikon exhibition on Facebook. To my surprise, I had two old buddies phone called me about an hour later.

To Nikon lovers, it's worth visiting for !

 

 I like how it's displayed, and the photo gallery. It's so awesome.

Right, one called during my blood donation. I was about to done when my junior called me. I let out a cry when the nurse pull off the plaster which my fur is still attached with. Oh, I precious fur.

It's not the nurse's fault, really. My fur happens to be near the elbow, and it happens all the time.

Another one was 20 minutes gap after hang up, who plans to invite me for a movie, Chasing The Dragon at 8.30pm. It's before 8pm, should be able to make it. So I happen to be on the 3rd floor by then, walk to the next end to buy ticket.

And when I'm waiting for the showtime, I sat down at my usual spot, and was about to continue my sketch earlier, another two guys showed up and occupied the last two seat and started inking their arts.

One inked a Power Ranger, one sketched a sport model of a sport shop nearby. I continued my landscape sketch.

8.15pm, both of them saw me while taking escalator up, I knew it... I later joined them, in separate seat. Supposed my next seat was occupied but the person never shows up. To me, I like it that way.

Cute Residents

Surrounding with cats and kittens

Many born with long, fury tails. They are always fighting at night, so much that I hear a lot of battle cries, I feel sad about.

They are always fed, by the residents here. They would open up some cats food and place randomly on pathways, and cats will know it's feeding time. I sometimes stop by just to watch them, whenever I feel sympathy.

Sometimes I sat by the pool, one will come to me silently, like it knows that I'm feeling down.

If lucky, you can find some little ones snuggling each other to sleep.

 These ones were taking their afternoon nap.

Found this one two days ago when I returned from mall. It's a newbie. It looked like its parent just abandoned it. So I went on to close with it, when it got a little less scared, I gently patted it. I wore black too.

After he, now she.

I hate the idea of taking care of unworthy people.

Foster grandmother wasn't a loving mother to my mother, always drinks, smokes, gambles and lies. But mother still look after her.

That fateful day of the passing foster grandfather, mother had made her promise to take care of grandmother. It looks a curse of words to me as her child.

Because of grandmother's regular drinking and smoking has caused her to admit hospital, the house has to take care sum of her operation and hospital cost, provided medicines and lots of appointments and check ups that requires mother's time to deal everything on it.

Grandmother had a stroke this early year, worsen her health. Now, more medication and check ups she has to follow... even the fluid and food limits for grandmother to be taken everyday. Beside washing her own clothes, reading newspaper, watching TVs, polishing her nails and naps all day, grandmother never appreciates what mother did for her whole life.

Mother has to prepare piles of medicine tablets every Sunday night for old hag. She could have get away from that cursing responsibility that she had promised to her late foster father.. Such uncaring old hag just not worth to be treated like queen.

Old hag turned 80 this year, if she lives another 20 years, mother will forever lost her freedom the entire life... FUCK THAT LIFE