Recalling back in college, there's fewer Chinese Race that I could count within fingers, so we were easily bonded different Course Term yet same class subject, with one exception.
His name is just not worth remembering, but worth feeling cautious about. The only thing I know about this dude was his twisted fantasism and very weird personality. We had common interest of anime related event such like Hobbycon, maid cafe and cosplay, but the rest was just his made up fantasy of animeXJapanhistory combo = "Sarin Attack-Edo Period childhood profile" about himself to get "closer" relationship on me, but I'm not what he thought by the way.
This dude tried his everything to wanted to get his so called "get together and closer" bond, to have me hold hands in public by using "brother-sister" relationship.
To him, I might be his fantasy crush, a man-woman love relationship; To me, was for my experiment test on self, well.. I am Lesbian-LGBT as result. I see myself as a dude holding a grown ass large dude's hand, a gross-creepy-pity term. When was the last time I held my real brother's hand? 9?
I had no trust on every word that came out of this dude's mouth after his plot was achieved as he wished. (Well, good for him, mine never officially recognized when I was with my crush girl.) His mood completely changed and revealed, he acted more with aggressive gesture in talks and walks.
Well yeah, deep down felt like he OWNED me, which pissed me off. I ended that creepy friendship.
I was a weirdo in everyone's eyes in that association after my secret confession got out the following morning. I guess that's how my crush felt of me, a creep of those years my presence around her. She's now a married woman belong to a man whom she texts me as husband, drawing a clear red line that I must not ignore but feeling jealous and bitter.
I still.. missed her voice. Not together, but I missed the memory I had with her.
Brother and I weren't close in childhood, we used to fights over games and silly things. But as adult age today, we could enjoy over dinner. I bought a CNY LEGO set, he likes them so much that he appreciated and thanked me many times. I too couldn't thank him enough for the years he paid my data, trips, gifts and meals.
