Things I did have one reason

For peace at mind.

For the past 5 days, I spend outside the room, is about exploring new places and going event. my first day break going to the extend mile just to experience the unique [ The Library ] bookstore, where it’s open 24/7.

I spend the whole afternoon in one of the spot sharing table and sketching my storyboard, watching the color of the sky changing from blue to sunset to nightfall.

Sharing table is an unpleasant experience, because you will feel the shake and knock from people simplly releasing strength on the table, it’s kind of annoying.

Next is people constantly watching you, curious about what you are doing, they purposely walk towards and pretending they passing with a sneak peek.

They talk loud, sometimes it’s quiet.

Day 2, I was initially going to the park, I ended at IOI Damansara mall, another route end of the line. It’s relatively empty, not much to see, very few people, I went to the outdoor where there’s a yoga centre. Walking up the stairs and more stairs led me to trees and plants round park, further up is linked to resident entrances for both blocks, kids playground and a fenced basketball court, however it’s not accessible.

Surprisingly there’s a Rakuzen Restaurant where most other branches are packed or queue in numbers, I can walk in here and enjoy quiet time surrounded by favorite set menu I would order.

As belly is stuffed, next is bookstore. BookXcess, I saw a stationery its online platform, and decided I could buy souvenir for a friend I be meeting at Comic Fiesta.

I ended up buying more things than just gift. A Hello Kitty notebook, 1 therapy coloring book, 1 teenage novel Phantom’s Emerald by Avril Herng. Another wallet strike.

I bought 1 game Arknights Vol6 illustration book just a day before at a bookstore I frequently visit.

On the 2nd day, when meeting up with an ex-colleague and her family.

“ You still can find back money, but don’t miss the chance of doing what you love. ” 

After getting advice by her as a mid-age woman with family. 

I bought two more books, a manga series and RedJuice Illustration book at the same bookstore. More bleeding to my wallet, but I see value in them.

I have Facebook account only when I reached 19 through recommendation by older cousin, slowly I have other accounts, I read about both good, inspiring, hurtful and hated comments of other accounts. I find those hateful comment from hateful people who have different opinions and 'their method' way, small minded, or simply having short temper over sensitive subjects like bringing out own religions to the table, some dislike unfairness, comparisons, dislike difference, and not understanding other people's culture. All these wide topics aren't taught in schools, rare steps in counselling on resolves matter when matters occured. Age of schoolings are already overwhelmed with grades, exams, tests, homework and assignments, competitive and peers, when comes to finally able to enjoy some entertainment, some met with criticism on the very thing they enjoyed to do, thus worsening mental health, seeing the world only black, no white or seeing self no longer being pure. Unable to accept the reality, they choose to leave the world, leaving sad parents behind. Bad things are learnt faster.

When you get along with everyone

People here, whenever there’s bad terms among themselves, they relay message to someone who get along with everybody to pass, me.

K and J // = A1.

When you are the [ get along with everyone ] type, you unintentionally get to know more of the silent drama in the office.

Some not their business, just don’t want to get involve as much as possible. They shove away instantly or order people around.

That’s A2, extra to me.

No need to involve the name but was mentioned to follow up with.. I still have to update them of the project I’m in.

Some do indirectly add in misc task they were tasked to another person.

 

 

It gets frustrated and even upset when :

 

People shares video clips on a social media platform that I don't have an account to access to watch on mobile phone, expect me to watch, remind me to watch.. remind again another day or two or whenever they remember. I found a way via laptop even without an account. But when I share video clips to the people who doesn't have, they brush off, I stop sharing that platfform and choose one that everyone has, I never make reminder, none, end of me. In the end, I felt unfairness in heart. 

 

 

Trouble finds me all the time, whenever I thought I could recharge energy over phone call, it became draining me faster, and more pressure speech I received.... at the same time avoiding replies that might become argument, constantly stopping of what I really wanted to say and finish what I want to say, regretted I brought up some old to make sure the relationship doesn't turn sour or worse,  knowing I will never win, and I always in the wrong.

 

I hate and angry to people who don't treat me the same as I treat them. Not appreciating the organized, clean and quiet quality sleep I give to them, instead they return with loud music, loud talking party, squeaky walking slippers, dirty bathroom, dirty kitchen counter, smelly laundry, messy shoes and slippers blocking my only walkway to the exit, banging door