30th September 2018, Sunday

30th September 2018, Sunday

怕。
怕爱错，
在公司也好，路上也好
和女同事们或陌生女士都保持疏远。

女同事们的“暧昧捣蛋”，
不敢认真，
不敢动心。

和男同事们像哥儿们一般，
吃喝吵吵闹闹必有分，
但他们未必有一致的心态。

不想找任何人，
也不想被找的一路上，
一个身影，
自个儿看电影，
逛书店。

当夜已晚，
就回到居租房，
开开社交媒体，
分享视频剪辑
和有趣文章。

Just Pick it Up - (July-August 2018)

I was about to cross a traffic road
to the station to work
one cloudy morning,
where a motorcyclist roam across
before me.

I noticed an object on the road,
a marine blue rubber slipper
on sight.
Was it there before?? 

The motorcyclist slowly stopped
It was an Indian uncle
reversing his motorcycle
was he reaching his slipper?

My body was moving forward,
I didn't hesitated to try to pick it up
But then a car from another traffic road
went over, the driver didn't stumble it.

I was a bit careless back there
Like a child trying to pick up a bouncing ball,
trying to reach the slipper
without prioritizing my own safety.

Well nothing happened,
gladly, I went to pick it up,
and place it under the his foot.

He thanked me,
with a gentle smile with
that cool looking mustache .

Heartfelt

I was late for work
one morning.

It was around 9am,
I walked down the shoplots,
and saw an unusual sight.

There was a group of people,
Chinese family, was it?
And an elderly woman,.
She was sitting on a fold-able chair,
with one leg rest on another chair
covered with a bag of ice.

I continued to walk.
Not far from me, an ambulance
was moving in a slow pace,
it wasn't siren, and a few meters
away from a roundabout

The driver seemed unsure,
turning his head front, right and to the left.
In the glance he looked to my direction,
my left hand raised up,
showing him the way,
he raised his palm,
with a smile,
and accelerated.

I looked at my hand,
my action,
was quicker than
my mind.

My Mischief On A Movie

14th September 2018, Friday

I was watching a comedy movie
one late evening.
I accidentally dropped
my popcorn box
on the floor.

I thought nothing bothers,
because I had finished most of it..
Until the movie ends,
with the lights on,
only then I found out
that I had made a mess..
worse it's near an audience next seat.

I used to hate adults' attitude
for not apologizing
of their reckless mistake...

I began to hate that
of myself....

I didn't regretted my mischief,
only felt bad the days after..

Thinking back
shutting myself in room,
except to eat out and buy supply,
speech was wane,
lied in vain,
looking back those 8 months
I spent living in isolation,
thinking back now I felt
really got myself feeling horrible

September 2018
Gaining back little confidence,
I am starting to look straight more,
still avoid straight to face,
but better than finding gold on the ground,
and open up abit more freely.