2011 will be my first year entering the real working society. Incoming pressure and stress waiting me ahead.

Carrying on the past, storing them all is my style, my journey, my memory, my life, my p......... continues.

it's my time to share with brother, and make a comfort living.

New year? Doesn't matter.

Just bringing myself up to settle undone things before I start my practical training in January. Yamcha? I change  mood frequently, I will definitely bored you all up, and I suck at topics, weather and news, weather and news. oh, how I am doing? 

"Okay lar, learn new things these past few months, take my last paper in KL, after that start my training"

Christmas Eve Flash Backs

A quiet, rainy Christmas Eve.. Something amiss... Shandy? maybe... not... but tonight's weather does suits me well, lots of flash back after I met this person... sweet, sour, bitter and spice... in these 3-4months...

Every night bedtime stories... every morning cherry-greetings, every fun group trips & hang outs indoors-outdoors, attend Life Group, Saturday YouthAlive, & Sunday service, doing videos & presentations, personal times

I don't want to think of anything in negative ways to the person, but I will think it on my own self. Maybe I do resemble the person's soulmate, spend time when the person needs accompany. I fall in it. I could bring smile to the person, but I couldn't bring smile to myself in the end...

I have been working hard to control my feelings, but an unexpected kick draws out the distance, and has been drawing far since 16th Nov...very depressing... each passing weeks... 7th Dec, I brought out the question. However, very in disappointment and dissatisfaction, I didn't get a clear out reason... yet again... I don't get what's the cause of everything happens around me, and all went passed me...becoming mysteries AND I HATE THAT, if I say I'm fine with all this, I'm lying, if I say I'm not hurt about this, I'm lying.

I will accept it, and continue to take it in, I blame no one. I'm just being patience and obeying what the person wants... now I can't even communicate, chat or sms normally or even look into the face... but I will continue to help if there's needs. I always regret I didn't say it earlier as I was still in confusion...

Yea, people does mistaken me that I convert to Christian because of the recent activities along with them, ANd I'm here to clarify my identify. I'm an open-minded person, maybe it's totally weird that I went to their church and hang out with church members and helping out but I will always be a Buddhist.

Presentation - Final Project (21-12-2010)

I made my final correction took me 1 hour to complete. Look at the time... 9.45am. I should be there by that time. Well, I felt at least satisfied of my presenting video later on. Now I'm going to rush my bus.

9.56am ready, 10.12am..... bus driver isn't starting to go. I received sms from my partner as the preentation is starting. And, my final decision is to take a taxi ride. Damn... RM11 to Wawasan....

(10.22am) I arrived and it's already started. It's not our turn yet gladly, as we are presenting at 12.05pm. Well better then I get over-nervous.

There's alot of bad comments from the previous presentations, and we are kind of nervous of this, we might get spammed alot, I took out my note and started to write and predict what should I response if they ask after our presentation.

So, when MC called our names, we stood up and walk forth, my partner bought me some time to bring up the video into the computer and test the it. When it's done, we started our presentation without further delay. During the video, she did said about the volume still higher than the interview talk, my fault... I didn't play using speaker...

Just as always, I would ready my note and pen to write down the comments and critics from lecturers. We don't get much critics, I guess the reason lies behind that this video is about religion issue. So just after this is our recess time.

12.30pm - 1.30pm, Practical Training meeting. Then resume the presentation until 6pm. I managed to stayed up until 4.50pm, and say hello to home. Really shutting me down, I took quick shower and straight to bed. A middle interrupt phone call, from uncle Steven....  I slept back after that until the next morning 6.50am. Yea, skipping whole day meal... I don't feel the hunger at all but sleep.

Panda Eyes... where? Me?

Two days watching sunsets and sunrise, I finished the final project video. Still not professional, and still suck at after effects, that's my level. Of course, I'm not satisfied of this video I made.

 There's alot of things I can put effects in, but I'm not skilful.

Yea, can say, it's last minute editing, both of us have pack of activities going on by sequence, we just finished helping at the Gaya Christmas event, not only 2 days is much free. I'm glad I could done it on time, still abit late as I supposed to be sending the complete video to college computer before our time of presentation starts.

My buddy and I are non-stop working. My body need rest after this.

Floody Neighbourhood

Kepayan Ridge.

This noon, my partner and I discussed the video sequence and sources at her church. And followed Uncle's car home. They stopped by to take lunch at a corner restaurant near my housing area.

Weather is going badly, that it started raining heavily, during our lunch time. The first lightning struck between the restaurant and the snooker shop, causing a blackout. A Kancil got dead engine when crossing the road to ShanDao School, everyone were helpless, but to watch the guy with the umbrella pushing the car by himself as the rain was too heavy and dangerous to reach his car.

Everyone in the restaurant thought it struck on something, as a "sparkling sound" shocked us all. After we finished our lunch, I asked the owner about the condition here as I seldom aware of the flooding condition, sooner I borrowed an umbrella and checked out the exit road.

Upon reaching the bus stop. I first time witnessed ... "is this a road? or a muddy river!?" serious flood, but still counted as medium flood. water flow was fast like a river. the depth almost reach the top of a Kancil height, when I saw a Kancil being pushed a foot away by the wave, straight head to the high ground and wash over to my feet about 8cm height, nearly flood into the shops' entries.

I heard the workers there, it's the first time in 10 years, much serious than the previous one I saw. I went back to report the matter to the owner and uncle. We sat down, waiting the flood to fall, I informed mom about the flood, she panicked and decided to fetch me at the store.

Talking on the phone while searching another way out. Yea, the flood here seemed going down abit, and was safe to cross. Back to the table and informed uncle about it. So uncle drove me nearby the shop where the road started flood at the center. I lifted up my pants, auntie gave me a green plastic bag to cover up the VCam, and I'm ready to taste the mud ! They waited on the road until I safely reach by the side shop.

Mom was on the way crossing the flood, we waited awhile to observe the situation before we crossed back to our home. NICE flood ! Fucking rain... glad we made home safe.

Busy Month - December Part 2

Final Project presentation is approaching countdown 7days, and yet there's other things to do. I don't wish there's final project but I prefer to prolong the practical training like 6months.

Well, 6-10th conference over, and 11th & 12th over. Now coming up Gaya Christmas event from 14th-17th. Hope I get better fast.

11th & 12th Hobbycon 2010

An annual event for Otaku and kids. Some unexpected cosplayers such as Karmen Riders and Dead Master, are present.

 

I wonder if there will be Ultraman next year... not feeling well but it's an enjoyment I wanted to find. I met alot collegemates, a STTSS junior, STTSS teacher, instructors, STTSS classmate and a primary school classmate Yong Wei Ting. yeaa... 9 years flew, we are all grown up now although our height are still the same as always, and I couldn't believe that we still remember our names clearly.

I brought mom the 2nd day Hobbycon2010, not interested, she shops around. Tired and weak back home.

Thank you Eva, and her friends who ride me home on the 1st day during rain.

 11.20am ++,

I can see fire and smoke rising up opposite from my balcony, who has become the unfortunate victim? Hope no important documents lost in the fire...
 

Busy Month - December

It's December, the first busy month. A lot of up-coming outdoor events, parties and activities. (Traveling, Birthday party, Yamcha, Hobbycon 2010, Prefect reunion party, Final Project presentation, Christmas, ...etc)

I have my event schedule set this time. Most uni & college students are traveling back to hometown for holiday, I'm already home, so nothing to be bothered about flight tickets for now, but I'm worrying about January next year. My final exam postponed to 3th Jan, so coincidence and unfortunately, I'm going oversea the same day. Flight ticket wasted? Just hope my paper is on 8th or 9th after I came back...

Hobbycon 2010 is 11th & 12th. If I'm not busy or rushing, I will come take as many pictures as I want and will post on Facebook picture album.

Worse than Dilemma

Two and a half weeks of mental break down.

Red eyes, red nose, swollen face, heat, extremely upset. I looked at the mirror,

'who the fucking weakling face is that ?!'

Me, but I have to accept that face is just showing the truth of me.

I really got no chance to avoid every single of them. Feel like there’s a best option to keep it in a minimum stage but instead just as pain as I don’t need to choose the best option at all, yea. Face it even if I don't like it.

First thing comes, second follows in a day, just upset + upset. I just fed up myself, my mind blank, got over it, but soon will return the next following days, which means will never be over, just temporary…

I tried finding some hints for what has caused the sudden impact between us... but I never get any clue in the end, and remains as a mystery again.... I don't know, is it the best not to know the truth? or is it that so bad I face after knowing the truth? no one is helping anyone unless if there is...

Thinking out all the possibilities of what might has caused it, just focus one concentration could just burst my head off, what's more if double or triple other problems? End of life? I thought of that before, but no this time. I had just found a little bit of joy for my life to be at least meaningful, and now I'm gonna throw it just because of that?

Evon's Wedding Dinner

6pm, 25th November 2010, Thursday.

It's my first time attending a wedding dinner belonged to a senior schoolmate. Congratulations and thanks for the invitation.

I enjoyed taking photos and joining Evon's classmates in one table, having a wonderful feast and free-dancing with aunties & uncles. I met bro's classmate and my former instructor and his wife, nice to have conversation with them.

The classmates taught me drinking, I only drank a glass of red wine, in just a short while, my face turned red hot. And yea, vomit, followed by fever came to pay me visits before dawn. I can't let illness taken over me as there's more things waiting for me to be done.

Evon's classmate group