Today's Dream
I board a train. I have books and stuff carried with me, standing between the two coaches.
There is a man clad in brown / black & White shawl with his head looking down. I noticed that he has been traveling almost the same long distance like me. What comes after is, he peed himself, the urine floods around him to the train's floor. It was thick brownish colour with strong stench. he squad down in embarrassment not knowing what to do.
Everyone dash away from the spot, I have too many heavy stuff that I couldn't manage to lift on the ground is left on there, I stand on another end of the coach and watch from a distance.
I'm a semi-active Blogger, and this is my digital journey blog. I write almost everything as long as I remember. It can be thoughts, unforgettable dreams, games that I playing, or hobbies. The title of [ No Escape ] meaning there's no ending in reality, there's always fear and new mishaps in life and new, unexpected discoveries unfolded or yet to explore. Humbly say, I'm an average designer and video editor in real life. Check my original works in Portfolio Tab.
Saturday, September 28, 2019
Tuesday, September 24, 2019
Unmotivated ?
how not to feel regret?
I'm no scholar or "god".
I am myself.
Most of life,
I feel unmotivated,
Play games makes me move
from mission to mission
of the game's story.
So, how's my life story goes?
Easy,
got get played by someone lar.
I'm no scholar or "god".
I am myself.
Most of life,
I feel unmotivated,
Play games makes me move
from mission to mission
of the game's story.
So, how's my life story goes?
Easy,
got get played by someone lar.
Friday, September 20, 2019
There is a woman, a young mother sits in another sector in my workplace. Most of the time, we don't see each other during the working days unless bump in walk way, relief room, or using lift. The odd is, how I wish I don't bump into her when I'm away from chair. She never response whenever I greet her like I'm transparent since I join this company. She rarely look at meI clearly felt that she's avoiding me.
Eventhough I have a cheerful personality, but people says that I have serious face.
Well, ya. That's my unmasked face.
Eventhough I have a cheerful personality, but people says that I have serious face.
Well, ya. That's my unmasked face.
Tuesday, September 10, 2019
2019,
Age 30,
Single.
Introvert.
I have a new job after hunting for 6 months.
on six months probation period until October.
The previous designers had the average of 6 months working in my current position,
it's either disqualified due to low performance or resigned due to workload.
Bosses strictly monitor everyone's KPI,
I may not know whether I would be in this company in November
as I admit, my creativity and speed is not bosses' expectation.
13 September, Friday
I witnessed boss critiqued my Senior Art Director goes
" This is what you do for two hours? "
The boss's words were harsh towards the him,
I was helpless.. I felt I'm at fault for him shouldering all those works..
A Graphic Designer,
working with a group of talented team under a Senior Art Director.
An event and publishing company.
Event, fairs, advertisements, icons, brochures and books.
Salary is average. Started out working overtime on my first 4 months.
I get two days off a week, most of the time.
The company has Talent Focus and SOC for employees every month, I get to have allowance to cover expenses and earn more EPF at the same time.
I also start getting more freelance work from ex-colleagues,
sometimes not well paid.
Age 30,
Single.
Introvert.
I have a new job after hunting for 6 months.
on six months probation period until October.
The previous designers had the average of 6 months working in my current position,
it's either disqualified due to low performance or resigned due to workload.
Bosses strictly monitor everyone's KPI,
I may not know whether I would be in this company in November
as I admit, my creativity and speed is not bosses' expectation.
13 September, Friday
I witnessed boss critiqued my Senior Art Director goes
" This is what you do for two hours? "
The boss's words were harsh towards the him,
I was helpless.. I felt I'm at fault for him shouldering all those works..
A Graphic Designer,
working with a group of talented team under a Senior Art Director.
An event and publishing company.
Event, fairs, advertisements, icons, brochures and books.
Salary is average. Started out working overtime on my first 4 months.
I get two days off a week, most of the time.
The company has Talent Focus and SOC for employees every month, I get to have allowance to cover expenses and earn more EPF at the same time.
I also start getting more freelance work from ex-colleagues,
sometimes not well paid.
Wednesday, September 4, 2019
31st August 2019, Saturday
I have an uneasy time fall on last weekend and replacement holiday.
It supposed to be a relax celebration day, but the sudden visit from the landlord has ruined my day and the following days.
Summer cleaning..
Landlord has hired cleaning repair services that came without my knowledge.. and I have to take part in the cleaning process, took out a lot old appliances, electronics, boxes other expired stuff hidden inside cabinets to throw. The landlord took part this role as wel, but I felt like the responsibility has shouldered more in my place.
It's a total mood swing. Bugged to check on and replying text messages with landlord started to feel annoyed for the first time.
After all that cleaning, I had a bad headache.. The moment I start the nap... the moment it ruined my sleep cycle the next following days. I slept 4 hours from 4pm - 8pm, I stayed until 7am in the morning, and 9-10am.
It supposed to be a relax celebration day, but the sudden visit from the landlord has ruined my day and the following days.
Summer cleaning..
Landlord has hired cleaning repair services that came without my knowledge.. and I have to take part in the cleaning process, took out a lot old appliances, electronics, boxes other expired stuff hidden inside cabinets to throw. The landlord took part this role as wel, but I felt like the responsibility has shouldered more in my place.
It's a total mood swing. Bugged to check on and replying text messages with landlord started to feel annoyed for the first time.
After all that cleaning, I had a bad headache.. The moment I start the nap... the moment it ruined my sleep cycle the next following days. I slept 4 hours from 4pm - 8pm, I stayed until 7am in the morning, and 9-10am.
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