2018

I am a NEET.
Going to be the 9th month,
work-at-home part-time on the first 6 months
doing freelance for close people.

I lost appetite.
I eat once a day for first 7 months,
I keep myself in room,
except only out for meal.

I fear crowds.
I sense unpleasant,
I still able to go to malls,
with my eyes down.

I have irregular sleep,
sometimes up to 10-11 separate hours a day,
stay throughout the night awake,
and sleep at 7-8am.

To adjust back my body time,
I stay awake the next whole day
without nap and
it is very sleepy.

I thought distributing my books,
ending my life on my birthday,
but an incoming urgent artworks
just held me off the choke.